Two "E" Words that Terrify Me

Most of us have fears.  Spiders.  Clowns.  Heights.

Personally, I'm afraid of the first two, but more importantly I'm afraid of two concepts that start with the letter "E".  Any idea what they are?

As a Christian, born and raised, lost and re-found, couldn't prove it wrong no matter how hard I tried- I have always had a hard time not only wrapping my brain around but also not freaking out about the one thing that all Christians are planning for...any ideas yet???  Eternity. 

Don't get me wrong, I hate change.  I will tell you I accept it easily, but I don't even like it when my colleagues get their hair cut.  (Not that it stops me from changing my appearance on a weekly basis)  But the thought of spending an eternity doing anything will bring me to tears.  Have you ever been so scared of something that you will literally block it out?  I have been blocking out the word eternity since I was old enough to pray.

Things I have learned about Eternity:
- I won't understand it until I'm there
- It's going to last forever, I better start finding more hobbies before I get there
- I'm taking my banjo.

The second word that really gets me going is Economy. 
"Now, c'mon Schatzi, what could you possibly know about economy?" 
Well- I've been laid off because of "downsizing" and "outsourcing".  I have downsized to a scooter, not proud to say it.  I have gone without.  Slept on a couch.  Slept in a car.  Re-homed very beloved pets.  I have done everything short of beg on a corner to "survive" the economy, yet never have I, nor will I apply for Unemployment.  My father has made it very clear that I'm not allowed to apply.  Don't worry Dad, I'm not even going to argue.  Now I find myself considering a part time job to marry with my full time job so that I can weather the current economy, hell...I'd like to come out ahead.

Things I have learned about the poor economy:
- There are only a few people left that are willing to go out and make it happen, now is my chance
- While jobs are few and far between, qualified candidates are fewer...
- No one is above a lay-off
- I'm not as cool as I once was.

What are you afraid of?  Conceptual or Eight Legged, I wanna know...

-Schatzi